Preparing to prepare is a little like preparing to be a distance runner.  You have to want to prepare.  You have to know why you are doing it and why it is worth the sacrifice of time and resources.  You have to schedule a time to do it.  You have to budget some money for it.  And, you have to DO your plan.  All of this takes time.  Be patient with yourself.  New athletes or people trying to lose weight often fall, crash and burn on the very same hurdle:  Too Much Too Soon.  Take small steps.  This is a lifestyle change.  Work it in to your priorities and your way of life.  Make a spot in your schedule.  Take it easy on yourself.  Small consistent steps will get you and keep you places where short, exhausting bursts never can.  That is the purpose of this site:  to provide support for you while you become a person who is and continues to be peacefully prepared.